Machinations of a Color Theorist
With Treatment Resistant Depression comes a persistent state of Anhedonia, which is defined in part as (according to Wikipedia) ‘a diverse array of deficits in hedonic function, including reduced motivation or ability to experience pleasure.’ As such, I have hypothesized that color is a dominant aspect in my work as a way for my subconscious to work around the biological dysfunction in my brain, in order to express some degree of emotion or pleasurable vibe. Working with color is both a science and an art, so it satisfies one of my primary mantras as a creative and as a committed Atheist and Humanist, which is to always strive to stay grounded in reality. And since our perception of reality is, in most cases, heavily influenced by the visual, experimenting with color is a good method for exploring the boundaries between reality and our perception of it, whether literally or thematically.
Inspired by trees, constructed with found pieces of bark, and painted with oil, these bark relief sculptures explore color and our connection to nature.
They symbolize the life, death, and rebirth we encounter in our daily lives.
The bark, once living, represents death: the old versions of ourselves, identities and beliefs we once held. The construction represents life: the role and function these parts once served; and the paint, smooth and flowing, represents rebirth: the transformation of these old identities and beliefs into something new. On the bark, the oil paint moves from dark to light out of the crevices, symbolizing the transformation and healing that occurs when we face the darkest parts of ourselves with understanding and tenderness. Together the bark and the paint embody the depths of what it means to be human: broken yet beautiful. Their tactile nature serves as a reminder of our connection to the earth and each other.
My exhibit, Happy Place, is a conglomeration of pieces that I have created over the last year. There is no specific theme followed, but pieces that were made to represent things that elicit joy or invoke a sense of whimsy. I wanted to combine somewhat literal and abstract pieces and tie these together with bright, vibrant color palettes. I am a firm believer that not all art has to have meaning, and my goal for this show was simply to create works that might put a smile on someone’s face.